Dreaming Reality (Literally)

A few nights this week I've remembered some of my dreams. Groggy yet interested I grabbed my phone and keyed in what I remembered, trying my best to not illuminate my sleeping husband. I took some of the symbols and looked them up in an online dictionary tonight. Here's the dream that struck me the most this week. 

I was in bed, in my room at my mom's house. I just woke up from a nap I suppose. The room was dark and for some reason a ceiling fan was set directly above my bed that sits next to the wall. I stood in the middle of my bed to turn on the lights. They burned out. Except one, with a somewhat off rhythm dull pulse. Not completely out; struggling weakly to shine anything at all. 

Being on a bed isn't sturdy and I stumbled a bit trying to fix these lights. All of a sudden about five of my girl friends rushed in. "Are you okay?" "We'll help you!" "Let us get it! You alright?!" One of my friends was holding me gently by the arms as if I was in need of a jacket. "I'm fine, really, I'm okay." I said a bit confused and pleased they were so concerned. 

Telling this dream to a good friend of mine she responded, "Yay support!" Support indeed! For what? The most striking aspects of this dream were the light bulbs and friends. 

Looking up light bulbs I got a description of feeling ineffective, out of ideas and having nothing to offer. This is true. Lately I've been concerned about my current job situation and unsure of what to do. Not knowing where to turn or any steps to take. Also, the worst feeling of having nothing to give of substance. Even if I quit, what then? What do I have? 

Seeing my friends meant aspects of my personality that I've rejected but am ready to incorporate and acknowledge. It also means positive news. Checking the date on my phone, I recorded this dream January 1, 2013. 01/01/2013 at 6:23am. That same evening I got the seed planted in my head to seriously consider teacher training this year. This gives me a serious feeling of the Twilight Zone, only with a happy ending. 

Oh Universe how subtle you are! 

I'll explain. I feel it's significant one light bulb wasn't completely burnt out. It was very faint and barely pulsing but there was light none the less. Though I felt a bit useless and confused I wasn't completely down for the count. A small part of me was saying in a faithful whisper, "No Chelle, there's more. You have something to offer I promise". I've always been a person of many beginnings. I've mentioned this before, trying over and over and over again. Wanting to give up and (thankfully) never being able to. 

Aspects of my personality being rejected does not surprise me. I usually have multiple goals to go for and ways of understanding them or aspects to them. I mean really, about five friends for a few light bulbs? I can't be anything but grateful for such support! I do like how I am ready to incorporate and acknowledge them. Even if it takes time to realize that's what I'm doing. They didn't walk or stroll in. My friends, my personality aka true nature and purpose (which I feel at times can be the same thing) rushed in! I was grateful though confused. Positive news. That brings me back to the friend with her hands on my shoulders. As if she was protecting me. My purpose, passions and destiny are here for me. We're friends. Only good can come from that. I'm safe. 

I had this dream five days ago and thinking on it now makes this first week in January make sense. Some of the things I signed up just happened to show up to me at the right time, like the both yoga challenges!

• I signed up for a 40 Day Personal Revolution with yoga
• A support group to encourage women to follow their dreams
• A yoga blog challenge to get me over my fear of posting 
• Told my family and a few friends about my interest in being a yoga instructor. 

All to tremendous support, good vibes and love! 

The first day of the year I had a dream about my insecurities. The same dream projected me dashing them away with acknowledging my passions, embracing and following through with them. Five days later, I'm very excited and lovingly supported. It's amazing what your soul knows and how the universe will conspire with it when the need is great. 

I'm also glad I write down my dreams when I can. Even if I don't know what they mean at the time, going back to them I can understand how I'm feeling. More importantly, I can more fully appreciate what has happened because of them. 

Jennifer Pastiloff Day: Manifestation!

Today I decided was going to be Jennifer Pastiloff Day. As some of you may know, or maybe not, I am a crazy Jen Fan!  I've written a few pieces on her in my blog; Dreaming in Paris and What's in a Name?  I look up to her and love what she does. So I decided to show her some love by trying to encourage others to read her work. I even created the hastag #ManifestJen to see if I can spread the Love and Inpiration that way. I was surprised to see No Jen hastags. Whaaat?! And if you are a fan, hopefully you will join in and share you Jen favs as well! 

I will give you links to major places you can find this lady. Along with a few "awe-mazing" as she might say, quotes from her. And hopefully you will be inspired to Manifest your dreams too! I know I have! 

Here is a short bio about Jennifer Pastiloff from mindbodygreen.com: Jennifer Pastiloff was recently featured on Good Morning America. She is a yoga teacher, motivational speaker, writer, and advocate for children with special needs based in L.A. She is also the creator of the Manifestation Yoga® and leads retreats and workshops all over the world. Jennifer is currently writing her first book due out 2013 and has a popular daily blog called Manifestation Station. Find her at JenniferPastiloff.com and on Facebook and Twitter. 

Jen will be leading a Manifestation Yoga®  weekend retreat at Kripalu Center for Yoga and Health in the Berkshires, Massachusetts Feb 1-3, 2013. And find her other retreats at The Travel Yogi and her online classes at YogisAnonymous

Her blog: The Manifest -Station: Where you can read her inspirational writing, and find links to retreats, interviews, videos, and More! 


She is a Wellness Expert on Mindbodygreen.com : HERE is a link to her articles she writes regularly for them! 

You can also find her on FACEBOOK and TWITTER! 

Fear, Strength, Yoga, Dreams, Family, Truth, Awe and Wonder and Manifesting are just a few topics you will find her writing about. She speaks of real life and also has no problem having a bit of fun! I mean, she did create Karaoke Yoga!  Yes,you read that right. Rocking out and Yoga combined! 

I truly hope you take the time to connect with her. Or at least drop her a nice line, I'm sure she'd love that. Namaste my friends, and make sure to Manifest your dreams! 
~Chelle aka Writer Yogi 

Make Your Dreams Physical

This is my "Chapbook" It started off as a joke. Now i'm  rethinking it.

This is my first "Chapbook". A couple pages of my poetry and a page ripped from yoga journal I turned into a cover. I can't even remember how I got this idea. All of a sudden I went, yeah, this will be great! Which is how a lot of my ideas start haha. I showed it to my writing group as kind of  a joke. Thinking on it more, I realized, it was a good idea!

I had in some form, made my dream real. I do want to publish my poetry. I want to be known as a poet. I want people to read or hear, when I'm reading from said collection ;) , my words and feel what I feel. I want to share all I have and take all that is  given back so I can share more. I am most alive when I am vulnerable so it is only natural for me to want to bear my soul.

It made me think about making another fake chapbook. Correction. I want to make a rough draft of my chapbook.  One that I don't slap together in 5 minutes just on a whim. Make a fairly decent cover actually thinking about what design would be appropriate. Put all of the poems I have written so far in there. Make a legitimate table of contents. A dedication if necessary, etc.

Making this chapbook, I can physically feel the pages and cover in my hand.I  can see my words in print with a cover, my name and title on the front. Smell the paper (I love book smell!) Even better, it is in real life! 

No more will I have to abstractly try to think about what my book would look like. How it will feel in my hands. How my words look on the page. Even if this version is not the final version, which of course it won't be, I will have a solid idea and manifestation of what I am aiming for. No more window shopping at a bookstore or envying the books on the table at an author reading. There will be no more struggle trying to mentally construct what I want in my daydreams. I can look on my desk and say, "Wow, that's my book. That can really be mine because, well, there it is!" 

What's something in your life you really want? Can you make a physical rough draft of it before it's in its final stages of completion? I recommend you do. That way, you know your dream will come true for the fact,  it's literally in your hands! 

Let's make our dreams physical my friends,

Chelle aka Writer Yogi